What you don’t see

I sit, waiting for a cardiac workup, convinced that I had a heart attack, trying to take it easy. But I can’t. I know that things are getting scary, and I wish I could help you. I wish I could comfort you. But I can’t. I am trying to scare you because things look bad. Israel continues war crimes in Gaza. Then comes news that Israel sortied F-35s to attack Iran. And Ukraine is losing its war with Russia.

Reports say that Chinese youths are giving up on life because of the repressive government committing human rights violations. They declare of their country, “Let it rot.” That’s an incentive to shake things up and start a war. So, yes. Scary stuff.

What I haven’t been seeing is that underneath any headline you care to pick, there’s something more evil. Something slimy. Vile. For all of you fans of Joel Osteen, Madonna, Taylor Swift, and thousands in entertainment and evangelism, I’m asking you to rethink what they do and say.

I finally got sick of the gender nonsense. You’re not gender neutral. Not binary. You’re one sex or another, and that’s it. I’m going to ignore those who look like a certain gender but harshly correct me when I politely call them “sir” or “ma’am.” I’ll do my best, but I’m not taking bullets for anyone’s misplaced identity. I’d be a hypocrite to say I’m a Christian and take the sins or mental illness of others as normal behavior or conditions.

I won’t be hateful or angry. I will not mock nor preach to them. I will remove myself from the situation. But I’m not playing that game anymore.

I oppose sexual sin as it is defined in the Bible. And that’s another game I won’t play: “Jesus never said anything about homosexuality.” Yes, but he did read from the scrolls of what’s now The Old Testament, and he fulfilled the prophecies about himself, and as he preached the New Covenant, he didn’t change it. All he said was, in Matthew 5:38-48,

38 Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth:

39 But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also.

40 And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloak also.

41 And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain.

42 Give to him that asketh thee, and from him that would borrow of thee turn not thou away.

43 Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy.

44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;

45 That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.

46 For if ye love them which love you, what reward have ye? do not even the publicans the same?

We are to love each other and give, and forgive; we must not hate people for what they do.

You can hate the sin, but you must love the sinner.

We all have trouble with this. But the point is that this is the only Old Testament quote he made that changed.

Of course, he did say that if, on the Sabbath, an ox stuck in a ditch should be rescued because farmers depended on their beasts of burden. I tend to view this as common sense, not a major change.

Maybe Christ didn’t condemn immorality by each specific name, but he did condemn it, going so far to say that if a man so much as looked at a woman with lust, he had already sinned with her in his heart. That’s far more specific than “Thou shalt not commit adultery.”

One question before I get back to my recess:

If you die tomorrow, are you sure that you will be welcome in Heaven? Do your actions, habits, or interactions with others really strike you as righteous and the things of a truly repentant person?

Think about it.

Joel Osteen says, “You’re already forgiven.” He leaves the part about true repentance and stopping your sins. In so doing, he lies. Everywhere I go, I hear people saying, “I know that if I sin, all I have to do is ask forgiveness.”

But will you be forgiven? Because God will not forgive a sin that you will not stop repeating, but will only forgive habitual sin that you truly regret and see as something evil and damaging, separating you from the Holy Spirit. This…is the most important decision you will ever make. So please think on it.

My life is not the same. I regret my words. I regret ugly thoughts. I regret my sins and fight temptation with God’s help. I don’t even use the F-bomb anymore. When I’m certain that I’m weak, I pray. It used to be hard to pray. I believed wrong things like Joel Osteen says. My life has a new normal. But I’m not haughty. I remain steadfastly more humble. I’ve lost friends and after this I will lose more. I’m sorry for this, but I don’t care if I lose every friend I have. I’m not going back to my old life.

Don’t mock God. Believe in him, and only him, the one true God, creator of all we see and hear and know.

Above all, be nice. Be a good example of a Christian. I do not believe that John Hagee, Joyce Meyer, Joel Osteen and most people in the entertainment industry are Christians. They have enough money that they have no need of nurturing the spirit through God. Taylor Swift is not a Christian. Madonna is doing everything that she can to mock God and work for Satan. Look away from these people and pray for them to see the truth. In the meantime, look after your own heart and soul. The way to Heaven is narrow and not easy to stay on. Guard your faith with all that you have. Don’t let evil people make you give it away.

A world war looks more likely all the time. Scary things are happening. You can live in that fear or have the peace that comes only from God. It’s up to you. But Jesus must be accepted first.

John 14:6King James Version

Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.

Of Mermaids and Water People

Amanda Grace said that mermaids and water people are coming after us. That they are a part of the kingdom of darkness and are technologically advanced.

I’m not about to repost the preposterous fever dreams spouted by the prophetess taking stage at Trump’s Doral property. Doral? Wait.

Isn’t that a cigarette brand?

It’s in Miami. You know, one of the cities doomed to join Atlantis at the bottom of the sea because, Republicans?

Except, wait.

Mermaids ain’t real. If they were, God would have told me. I’m his favorite, you see.

Atlantis, of course, is an ancient place of fiction created to prove a point by Greek philosopher Play-Doh. No shit.

And “water people”, I have no idea of. What the hell is she even talking about?

Because I take it that she’s not referring to fishers or gloucestermen, or SCUBA divers. Maybe Olympic swimmers? But then, what technology do they possess that’s superior? Are they not humans, using humanity’s tech?

Maybe she means this:

copyright Disney

Lady, that’s from a fuckin movie! It’s not real!

Or perhaps she’s talking about the famous statue in Denmark. Yeah, lady, that’s a statue. It’s not real, either.

But wait! You said “images”, didn’t you? Can it be that you think images are demons, with high tech weaponry, that are going to come alive and fight us? Is that really what you said?

Yeah. You did say that. But then you said that mermaids and “water people” are demons. You added that we need to know “the rules of engagement” and that we are meant for hand-to-hand combat. You should know that the “Terms of Engagement” refers to a particularly awful American television series. And that fighting spiritual entities with your hands is not possible, and even if it were possible, we would lose.

And that you are the last person anyone should be tempted to follow into battle.

And what the hell is wrong with your nose? I think you should buy ten cases of Afrin, and that might unblock it.

I think, though, that the more likely reason you talk funny is because someone once took offense to your false teachings, condescension and feverish views on the future. And they just reared back and broke your nose with a brick.

I think too, “Amazing Grace”, that what you need more than any nose spray is some thorazine, an anti-psychotic and a couple of ‘shrooms. That, or an exorcism. I don’t know which.

I also really don’t care.

Because you use the threat of divine punishment against anyone and everyone who you believe is evil. And Grace: guess what? We are all evil. There is, inherent in our DNA, the capacity to act for good and evil both. And that is exactly what we do. The snag is, which one we choose most of the time.

For whatever it’s worth, I believe I could have ended up a serial killer. All the ingredients were there: parents who abused, raped, tortured and humiliated me. I was bullied. Sensitive, which kids sense and use against you. I saw things done to animals. I saw siblings abused. I had everything. Anger, hate that had to be suppressed, I was socially dysfunctional, always made fun of even when not getting my ass kicked. I lashed out only rarely, though, and always I hated myself for it. Usually it took the form of vandalism, but serious though that was, the high from it was fleeting.

What kept me from going further was that I did not want to hurt others. It just wasn’t what I was inside. Otherwise, let’s say I could have done serious harm to lots of people and loved every minute of it.

I became adequate with speech and writing, and I could easily have turned a phrase better than you. I could have taught. I could have helped. But things didn’t work out like that for me. All my life, I was a nobody, a zero. Until I had children.

And outlived them. Now I’m a zero again. Old. Crippled. Tired, worn out, in unending pain inside and out.

There is nothing to be gained when I warn others that we really are in trouble. We’ve turned this blue marble into a toxic waste dump. We’ve filled the skies with poison, the seas with sewage and oil and plastic, and the ground with everything We’ve ever done.

I realize that by endorsing Trump, you don’t care much about that. You care nothing for women’s rights. Nothing for civil rights. Nothing for the truth. And it’s certain that you have no regard for yourself.

I don’t know what made you this kind of fanatical liar, but there’s one thing I do know:

Shut the fuck up.

Do it before you have no more time to repent.

Just stop.

The problem with people like Ms. Grace is that they ignore the truth and they disregard the doctrine of real Christianity in exchange for lies and honor, but they alone are not the only casualties. Show me a lying person spouting chickenshit in the name of God and I’ll show you misguided people who believe their every word.

That’s worse than killing them. Betraying God and others in order to scare people into giving you money (which is really why they do it) and power is called “apostasy”, something predicted in end times prophecy.

It’s real, always was, and is getting worse. Grace makes truly faithful Christians look bad. True Christians sin and make mistakes, but they’re not likely to stand in front of cameras and tell outlandish lies. They’re not likely to preach to you unsolicited. Not likely to lead others down a false path.

If Amanda Grace is not psychotic, then she’s a liar. But I don’t know what she is.

Besides dressing up in fairy tale garb and spouting lies, I have to wonder what she does for fun.

I’d bet you she watches mermaid movies. If I had any, I’d bet money on it.

I hope to God she doesn’t have any children.