Elke Summer is 84 years old, and has been many things, but is best known as an actress. She was always a kind soul and was gifted with stunning beauty.
But few know that in the early to mid 1960s, she and her partner Joe Hyams went through as hellish an experience as I’ve ever heard of when it comes to haunted houses.
I was haunted during these exact years, and being twenty years younger, my own experience was something I could not comprehend.
Yet humans have the natural ability to sense evil, even when it can’t be seen. Why Joe lived in denial of what he had to sense is only touched on in the following video, but I understand it. We don’t want to believe that a chair in another room just moved, or that a glass fell to the kitchen floor while we’re in bed.
In the midst of so many hoaxed and doctored ghost videos out there, I question why? Why fake it when you know the paranormal is real? The evidence was always there.
I’ve had many experiences when the hair on my arms and the back of my neck stood up. I’ve gone through the house searching for intruders when there were none.
I’ve seen things I didn’t like writing about here since 2019, because they’re terrifying to think about and set me up to look like some amateur crank who believes in ghosts, goblins and ghouls to skeptics.
I have reflected on these things and still have no answers. Frankly, I really don’t want any. I want to retreat into denial again, but I am a terrible liar, especially when it comes to lying to myself.
What I went through, from childhood through a few years ago, should have driven me insane.
I get by with what little bit of faith I can muster, that God is real and will continue to protect me.
But for Elke Summer and Joe, their hell in Hollywood stands out as particularly harrowing. I could never have stayed in such a house, although I’ve been in some that were bad.
This is a long video, but it held my attention from beginning to end.
The storyteller is good and I recommend his channel.
Enjoy a true story about a haunting that is both true and very well told.
What’s the best piece of advice you’ve ever received?
Dozens of times, from diverse sources, I’ve been advised not to go looking for things best left alone. Because you might just find them.
I know that TV and YouTube ghost hunters make ghost hunters look glamorous, but you will, inevitably, see something faked, or, more often, not see something edited from the final cut that should be food for thought, or rethinking what you are considering. And this time of year, ghost hunters, from beginners to veteran players, amp up their interest in the subject. And it’s just not advisable. There are some cardinal rules to this kind of misadventure, and all of them are routinely disregarded. Let’s begin with the basics.
THE HAZARDS
First rule: NEVER GO ALONE
This is for the exact same reason cavers, urbexers and hunters of game shouldn’t sally forth on their own: you’re risking your life. And if no one knows where your destination is, search parties won’t know where to look. Your name gets added to the missing persons statistics sheet and that’s it.
Are you trespassing? Before hunting in private forests, you must secure permission by the owner. Most will make you sign a waiver or hold harmless agreement. It leaves you responsible for anything and everything you do. That’s a tight place to be. Even bank anglers face the risk of trespassing and personal injury. Get permission. Taking fish or game from private property is poaching.
The worst offenders are urban explorers. An “abandoned” factory may still be owned by someone who has electronic and roving guard security. You’re going to be caught, fined or shot. That’s the dumbest risk I think I’ve ever seen. YouTube should ban such misadventures. They encourage others. They’re influencers.
Next up is your team. Can’t just be a bunch of testosterone-pumped alpha males; you have to choose a team. This must consist of a person trained in, at the very least, basic emergency first aid. Trips, falls, cuts, eye injuries and broken bones have happened. Deaths have resulted. If first-aid is not rendered on-scene and medics called in, serious consequences may be involved. A leg wound can turn gangrenous, and you know what that means. A head injury may seem slight but end in death.
Your field medic should carry a canvas bag with shoulder straps and include sutures, a collapsible cane, large and small field dressings, emergency blankets, adhesive bandages, sulfa, iodine and BZK swabs, hemostats, gauze rolls, tourniquet, BP cuff, aspirin, stethoscope, pen light for checking pupils, splints with cravats, insect sting relief, burn gel, two large bottles of eye wash, oval eye patches, atropine and anakit and an emergency channel radio. A flare gun is essential. Serious injuries are a race against time. Never be so isolated that help is too far away.
Hazardous substances like old, flaking asbestos fibers or residual hazardous materials may be present. Protective gear must be worn. It may consist of a full hazmat suit, or a hard hat and filter mask with cannister filters. Safety glasses. A suit to protect your clothing from dragging out insects, asbestos and deteriorated fiberglass. Once finished, you use the buddy system to sweep each other off before shedding the suit.
A gas meter must be carried by one member and monitored by someone who’s been trained. It should usually be calibrated for flammables but poisons can be present as well. Remember that these meters are unable to register a spectrum of material and first you need to research to see what might be present.
A person trained for spiritual warfare. If confronted by evil entities, they’ll scare you, and could even attack. Prayer before you begin and a spiritual warrior can help you escape with no demons following you home.
Even the TAPS team has experienced demonic attachment and had trouble at home. Therefore:
Do not challenge, insult or provoke spirits during your investigation. Never. You may get away with it for so long that you lose your perspective and worse, respect for things you’ll never understand. Ghost hunting is not instructional. It’s just dangerous.
Never have a spirit session, the circle. Never use a spirit or ouija board. Never call on anything to appear to you. Again, you can get away with it a hundred times, but keep it up and one day you’ll regret it. This is not always the case, but when it is the case, what happens next is life-changing and never for the better.
Screen members of your team. Anyone who suffered from trauma, has depression or problems with phobias shouldn’t go. Demonic entities feed on their raw, unguarded emotions and confusion or fear. That is not the ideal situation.
Stay away from ghost tours. Those guides typically lie and you don’t get to investigate anyway.
Never, ever, go alone. Even your team must carry extra batteries, cell phones with manual crank chargers. Walkie talkies, and two monitors outside at all times.
Avoid old sanitariums and hospitals. There’s never anything good there. The environment is nasty if not dangerous, and demons probably will be there.
Never investigate cemeteries. Especially at night! Legend-tripping or ghost hunting in a graveyard is a pretty arrogant thing to do. You’re on ground consecrated to the dead and anything that moves will be a problem at least, a danger at most. Besides. What do you think you’re going to find?
In prayer, join hands and ask God for help. Ask for permission. If you don’t know, don’t go. Playing games with your life isn’t a thing I suspect He takes lightly. In that case, crosses, rosaries and holy water won’t help you. You will have to proceed without help. Testing God is a grave sin.
Consider staying home or having a get-together with your friends. Nothing beats Pizza, buttered popcorn or something to snack on and a scary movie.
A ghost hunt is not worth risking environmental damage to your health, bodily harm, or your life. It’s just a bad idea, and you may not be the one, or the only one, to pay the price.
And I have, as you would, tried the whole time to make myself believe that I didn’t see it.
Because it’s impossible, right?
Isn’t it? Impossible?
Of course it’s impossible. But if you tell me that you have seen the impossible, I will believe you. No questions asked, I’ll believe you.
I’ve posted some truly weird stories here, and if you’re brave enough, or patient enough, scrolling my archived posts back to 2019 will prove it.
There’s weird shit back there. And stuff that still gives me the shivers every time I remember that I was right there.
Like that time I saw two people who couldn’t be, but were.
A woman slightly younger than myself and a young blonde teen who was so far out of grounds in this world that I could only describe her as fey, something more of an ethereal faerie than a human. Detached, serene, uncaring, unaware.
At the time I described how they took a long time at the self-checkout section of the grocery store yet came out with nothing bagged or any apparent purchase. They seemed to time their exit with mine, and they should have been long gone by the time I got through the cashier lane and my purchase was finished. I’d have to say, it took them an extraordinary amount of time in their checkout, and worse, while I was waiting in line, nobody else seemed to notice them, as though they weren’t even there!
Outside it only got worse. As they were in front of me walking west on the concourse, I heard the woman speaking, and not in any foreign language I had ever heard. To me it was shocking; a gibberish, or more precisely, ancient, something humans should not be able to do. When they slowed their walk and the woman seemed to realize that I could hear, she spoke English. The girl never reacted. She was as one who understood none of it. I could have thought that she was mentally deficient. And I suppose under any other circumstance, I would have, yet that sense of the uncanny, a human body occupied by something else, never left me.
What had I just seen, and what the bloody hell had I heard?
All I knew was that I hoped never to see them again.
I didn’t write about it, but I did see them again. About 6 months ago. Same. Different. As if the girl had grown some, but a mistake had been corrected or compensated for. The woman spoke only English. She knew I was there but never saw me, yet somehow knew who I was. Accepted it, but then disappeared. I have no idea how. Perhaps in a crowd. But I can’t remember and I don’t think I’m supposed to.
Are there life forms on this planet which can take human form, yet are not human?
I’ll tell you what: I don’t know, and I don’t want to know. I wonder what price there is for learning such a thing. Stories go back to well before written history, things passed on in tribes and families, of things best left alone. Things that could steal men away from their families by seduction, entrancement. Things that came in the night to steal healthy infants from cradle or pallet and replace them with dead ones birthed by inhuman creatures.
It’s unlikely. I mean…isn’t it? Surely, God would never have created such things. Right?
What we find worthy today of nothing more than folk tales, those things can’t be real. Right?
It may be that, however terrifying, no matter how humbling something is to contemplate, that we don’t know everything.
And maybe we know even less than we think we do.
Because today I saw something that defies everything I have ever reasoned to be possible. The scariest part is that I believe without a shred of doubt that I was meant to see it. Because I shouldn’t have.
Let’s take it from the top:
In my neighborhood live two little people. Often they’re seen together, a couple, a man and woman whom I think are pretty cool. I’ve always greeted them in passing, and they always say hello, and they smile, and go on talking with each other in an animated and sweet fashion. I’ve thought several times about how very cool it is that they found each other and found love. They’re quite a couple to see. They make me feel better when I see them.
Sometimes I see the man alone. I wonder if his wife is okay, or whether someone yelled an insult from a passing car, and what if she limits herself because of it? Little people get abuse all the time what with the litany of “munchkin” jokes out there for cruel and unimaginative morons to pick from.
Today the guy was alone. I had just seen something I would not ordinarily write about: an ancient woman of Asian origin who used to smile and nod in passing, but now walks out of distance from me. I don’t know if she avoids me, I don’t think so, but then, she lost a dog she used to walk and a cat that used to follow. She seems alone. Lonely, perhaps unable to convey her feelings to anyone. Because we treat the elderly much the same as we do little people: with contempt and cruelty.
I saw her coming north on the sidewalk, and with neither of us particularly quick in pace, I reasoned that she would cross my path, but she didn’t. I turned and looked back, and she was gone. I stared. There wasn’t any place she could have gone, and even if she had reversed direction, she should still have been within eyesight.
She was not. This baffled me, but it wasn’t particularly weird enough to be of note. What happened next, was.
The guy, the little person, crossed the intersection toward me so that he could continue to walk on a sidewalk, as it ends there on the side he had approached on. I waved, but didn’t speak. Sometimes we do that. It’s cool, nothing negative.
I crossed to the foot path, toward the shopping center. I stopped to let a family of 3 walk on ahead, continued with my cane and the pain, and for whatever reason, turned to look back. The little man was further up than I thought he should be, and that caused me to do a double take. He was running, and kicking ass doing it. But as I watched, he did the thing I believe he wanted me to see:
A bush of lush green leaves, five feet wide, four tall, sat next to the sidewalk on his left.
He did something.
Something I could never have expected, yet he held my attention from 60 yards away. And I saw it clearly. My eyes did hurt, but nothing was wrong with my vision; the lighting conditions were perfect. No glare, no occlusion. That happens once a day near sunset.
And this man, this little guy, he executed a perfect jump against the bush with both feet, his legs together, all of him parallel to the ground, like Neo jumping off the wall when showing Morpheus his kung-fu skills, and landed back upright, both feet on the ground. The branches and leaves of the bush never moved!
It was impossible. It is impossible. Nobody does that. You would just jump into the heart of the bush and land with your legs deep in the branches.
To hell with physics, gravity and everything, he did it and I saw it.
For an hour, I tried to convince myself that no, I had not seen it.
Yeah, that didn’t work. I saw it. The impossible, the bizarre, the terrible wonder of mysteries that humanity never gets to explain. Yeah, it’s frightening. How many times have you witnessed something you still can’t explain? It’s probably more times than you will admit to in public, and to yourself.
If he, as I believe, meant for me to see it, then it worked, I’m terrified. But what is the consequence of such a thing, and will I treat him differently?
No, I don’t forsee any lasting effects, no harm was done, and I will still smile and greet him in passing. It’s a shame that humans are so cold that this man and his wife or girlfriend always seemed surprised and thankful when I spoke in greeting or enquired how things were going.
Being part Irish, I could say that the folks might be magical, ancient beings whose like were here before us. I could call the woman and her teen companion paranormal beings, perhaps shape-shifting faeries. And the man, he could fit descriptions of leprechauns. Or be elven or dwarven in nature, and maybe I could even get away with it, but the fact – the truth is, I don’t know.
I cannot put labels where there is no honest basis to do so.
In the end, for today at least, all I can tell you for certain is that human arrogance prevents us from learning things we have no right to discount. It keeps us at each other’s throats in a world entering the most dire period in human and natural history.
We think we’re so smart.
We are not. To be wise, we have to first accept our stupidity, ignorance and arrogance, then try to put them behind us.
No sooner than I posted my last than I came under serious attack spirituality and physically. I got sick, very sick and I still am.
Because it’s happened before, it doesn’t mean that I knew what it was. I feel so miserable that writing this is a struggle. Lost my voice, have a killer headache constantly and flu symptoms, the full array.
Then came the nightmares. I take Alka-Seltzer and Tylenol before bed to reduce pain and fever. These are not fever dreams. In these all too-vivid, torturous nightmares, evil is present. I’ve known for years that there’s a difference between demonic attack dreams and the vile nightmares of PTSD. The reason for these things is because I wrote that I’m willing to help others, even if not qualified to speak for God. Look, I want to help people. The Devil, he doesn’t like it.
In a three-pronged offensive, my health, my rest and my resistance to temptation have been compromised. Not only that, but as a Reddit poster, I tried to give advice on this very subject to a couple of people. Reddit removed my replies and suspended me. Since you can’t delete a Reddit account from mobile devices, I instead sent all of their damned email accusations to spam and deleted the app. I’m never going back.
It’s unfortunate because one person I tried to help marked my reply as objectionable. The redditor wrote that an unseen being touched them, always in a comforting way, but they could also see shadow figures, tall, thin and easily spotted.
To be blunt, this person is in danger. Yes, I mean “danger,” and it’s bad that they are comfortable with it.
Jesus called Satan “The Father of All Lies”.
Therefore, demons lie. And by posing as a beneficial entity, this demon, of a type known colloquially as a “stick man”, has made its victim feel no threat, and when it attacks, which it will do, the victim is ripe for any level of possession or powerful curse. It will not leave them alone as the supernatural connection becomes too powerful for anyone to break. Even Roman Catholic exorcism may not work.
My remarks went unseen because reddit is not interested in freedom of speech or expression of beliefs.
I’m exhausted. If you are of a mind to, offer up a prayer for the unknown person for faith and deliverance.
Be ready to come under attack should you ever decide to truly serve God. The supernatural forces of evil will do anything to keep your will weak and to wash faith from your mind. If you resist, get ready for a damn Donnybrook, because that’s what comes next.
Until next time, when I’m feeling better, thanks for visiting. I’m always happy to have company.
God bless, and please remember that you are loved.
“From the most innocent and mundane come the things we fear the most.”
–Michael Smith, blogger, 20 January, 2023.
I’ve often had feelings of unease and then a questioning of reality during and following innocent errands, trips to new places (most of which were hardly “new” but new to me, as in, places I’d never been before.
Most recently, and perhaps significantly as well, was a trip to an oddly generic office building in Ellicott City. I was to see an ophthalmology specialist, a plastic surgeon.
Driven there by my healthcare worker who accompanied me to the suite, I was struck immediately by the ordinary familiarity with it. I had been to the location before, I was certain of it. I knew the area well, as it contains a somewhat infamous and infuriating intersection, known for accidents, road rage and confusion among drivers because of limited vision ahead and the lack of automatic signal. There is one close by, but it only makes the problem of entering its intersection worse. You never forget such a place because traffic backs up ahead of the intersection itself by an obsolete merge area with little allowance for courtesy or patience. Yes. I’d been here before. It even has a place in my novel.
Upon entering the building, I was gripped by an uncanny feeling which had the promise of getting more serious.
Not Déjà Vu. I knew I’d been in the building so that particular sensation was not present. Of course, it had been sufficiently into the past that I could not recall which doctor or practice I had been there to see, and of course that causes people to be distracted on a somewhat semi conscious level. And this, I suppose, could contribute to what I experienced next.
My healthcare worker punched the elevator button for the second floor and the doors closed. Assuming that we were on the first floor, it took too long to reach the second floor. It was wrong, just as the tiny lobby had been wrong. I actually said to her that I didn’t like the whole building because it just felt “off”. She pretty much ignored this and that’s as it should be. But as we turned a corner to walk through one of two long hallways, it felt even more off, as if I had entered some sort of parallel universe, one I did not belong in. It felt like it wasn’t real, as if staying there would result in some nebulous but unfortunate outcome.
Once we reached the proper office suite, it should have cleared up. In different spaces, energy, temperature and pressure can have slight changes. These could explain why one suddenly forgets why they have gone to the kitchen, which happens to everyone. We stand, vacantly staring, until we either remember our reason for being there, or give up. It’s so common an experience that no one really feels fearful of it.
The reception area was generic, but small; so much so that an appropriately wallpapered support beam stood in the center of the room. This subconsciously forces one to picture the building at its barebone newest appearance before finishing carpentry crews moved in. It’s there, but you never really put much thought to it unless you’re an architect, who of course would know the entire building on sight and see its blueprint in his or her mind.
In practice, though, it adds a certain claustrophobic element, and various reactions from annoyance to terror are probably felt quite plainly by incoming clients. Around this county it is common structure. I’ve seen it before but there is always something that makes each suite different: these range from what type of practice or other business uses the space, but all have at least light touches which make them unique in some fashion. The counter at the reception window had at the right end a large silver-colored candle box, usually associated with Christmas decorations of an old-fashioned lantern vein. I’ve wanted one for years. Never seen one before except in advertising or as elements in holiday season wallpapers for computers and phones.
That’s what I think of as a grounding point. It is real.
Or is it? You’ll questioneverything before you leave here, old man.
There comes a moment when that voice speaks inside you, and at least a good number, no matter how much in the minority they are, believe once again that their perception proves that we are living in a simulation.
Personally, my take on “simulation reality” is that it would still prove the existence of God; a higher being, a creator, and that our souls are who and what we really are, and physical life in our sense is temporary, fleeting, but very real.
In other words, who built the machine? It’s a way for people to account for their anti-religious stances while paradoxically also proving that they can in fact believe in some higher being.
The doctor saw me, and in his examination room, a small picture hung. A depiction of a doctor and patient as if painted in Ancient Egypt. It was singularly remarkable, another grounding object.
But wait, did I really see it, or was it some trick because I’m about to replay “Assassin’s Creed Origins”, a game which takes place in Ancient Egypt?
Come on, now, this questioning of ordinary life is really getting out of hand.
That wasn’t the end of this weird excursion. Oh, no. It gets worse.
Having set the date for the optic surgery, having also been reassured that I did not have cancer, you’d think I’d feel all set. I should have; after covid-19’s initial outbreak and disruption of most healthcare concerns, I’m finally taking care of myself.
My healthcare worker had left after checking in. I had to go downstairs and call her. I left the office, and right outside of the door, there was this old man. Really old, and he was bent as he walked, concealing his face. Immediately he struck me as sinister, and after asking him which direction the elevator was in (a generic hallway, exit signs at both ends, and the lack of anything to regain one’s bearings especially if vision impaired is unsettling), I got the idea that I’d just asked the devil which way to go.
I followed him at a lagging pace. I had severe misgivings, however hilarious they seem now, about getting on an elevator with him and going the opposite direction of up.
I passed a door marked “women” and decided I’d use the men’s room. But I couldn’t find it. I really did need to go; I’d had a glass of water with my meds before leaving. I said to the old man, who was now insisting that I get on the elevator, where the Men’s room was. He pointed but paused, so I told him to go ahead. He did, but didn’t he seem disappointed?
Entering the latrine was completely disequilibrating: it, too, was all wrong. The urinal was too small in proportion to the room and in comparison to every other pisser I’d ever seen!
The same generic wallpaper was there, yellowish-beige, a very unsettling color if ever I saw one. The only way it could have been worse was if they were blood-red or all black.
I went to wash my hands and found the hottest water I had felt since slipping while making pasta and plunging my left hand into boiling water. Had the old man really been the devil, and was he now punishing me for not going down on the elevator with him?
Back at the elevator, I noticed a door to a suite adorned with enormous silver laurel leaves: who does that, I wondered. It is bizarre and out of place and gave me the flying shits. I had to get out of this unholy place!
Pushed the button for the first floor. Exited the elevator only to find myself looking through a huge window onto the parking lot below. I stepped back into the elevator and found a button marked “LL” — Lower Level. I hesitated. I knew it was the floor we had entered the building on, but why mark it such when it should be the first floor? I wondered if the old man would be waiting, if the elevator would take me below ground. Far below ground. All of this seems silly now, because at no time did I feel panic. It was all disorienting and creepy, but not frightening. Except for the old man, who in reality must have been acting out of kindness. Still, the whole setting contributed to my perception, and in future, more consideration must be given to ensure that the layout and aesthetics of buildings comfort rather than the opposite. Because once outside, I felt better, less oppressed in the rain and cold air.
LIMINAL
There’s creepy pasta all over the internet, so much that there’s always more to catch up on. One of them involves “liminal spaces”. The first story and accompanying photograph involved something called “noclipping” a sort of transport into another reality, almost always accidentally. One ends up in a liminal space, like an office floor with yellow walls and absolutely no people or even furnishings. There is nothing but miles of connecting offices and one can actually become trapped there. Coming from 4chan initially, this concept has of course migrated to reddit, where it has been added to. Now long hallways exist in which you can walk until you die and never find a way out. Noclipping is a new concept for me, (I’ve encountered it in video games) but I take it to mean an accident during normal travel which deposits one into an alternate, in-between reality.
I have encountered the feeling before. Once, a very long time ago, in the 1980s when mega-malls were the next great part of the American Dream, I had to deliver a carpet to a shop called T-shirts Plus in the White Marsh Mall. The mall was unfinished, and that’s not an experience I’ve ever wanted to repeat. I walked through the mall with a heavy roll of Burlington Industries carpet slung over my shoulder (I was so much younger then) and the only comfort was a few construction workers above me.
While it was fascinating to see the mall in incomplete condition, it was also unnerving and uncomfortable. With the failure of malls to survive Reaganomics, and finally strip malls and online shopping, urban exploration has become popular, as have the recorded proof, both visual and auditory, of such risky endeavors. Trespassing is one thing; risking one’s life and limb quite another.
Liminal spaces are a real fear, although unquantified and little known, that I believe has been with us for a very long time. Whether psychologists want to examine the phenomenon, I can’t say, but it certainly does seem to qualify for scrutiny. It appeals to a fear of being lost and never found, a fear of being watched or menaced by an unseen force or being, a fear of being trapped, closed-in, and even of open spaces.
And while I believe these fears to be ancient in origin, I believe it all comes from one fear more than any others: the loss of control over one’s own life.
Since I have never been in control and believe that the concept of it is delusion and unreal, I have nothing to fear.
But yesterday, I came very close.
The old man was no devil. But in heightened awareness, when one suffers from various maladies, the wrong surroundings can make one believe almost anything.
Perhaps no one can explain the phenomenon more concisely than the Why Files personalities A.J. and Hecklefish. Here is the episode that gives us the skinny on liminal spaces and how they have entered pop culture.
And if you should find yourself somewhere strange, a featureless, empty space which evokes a feeling of the uncanny, of being menaced, trapped or lost, don’t worry.
1500 hours. Saturday afternoon. The grocery store is busy. Nothing about the day feels different from any other day. I put some things in my cart, struggling to see the aisle numbers and what’s in them. Eventually I work my way to checkout. There is a line but it isn’t bad. I scan the milling people and Magazine covers as I wait. Nothing is wrong. It’s the same old thing. A routine. Nothing more.
I’m next in line when I notice two women. One is a little bit younger than I but her face has mileage that makes me unsure.
He daughter is a dirty blonde with long, perfect hair. She’s between 12 and 13, too young for me to be taking notice of, but I am anyway. She’s wearing a summer T-shirt with gray leggings, sneakers and a sweater tied by the sleeves around her waist. She is detached, disinterested, unaware of everything else around her. I get no indication that she or her mother, similarly dressed, have in any way noticed me. They are at the self checkout registers. I never see what they’re buying.
I get my turn at the register. I pay them no further mind. It takes a while for my items to be scanned and bagged, yet when I push my cart towards the exit, I’m right behind them, but they should have been long gone. They carry no groceries. As if they bought one item and it was small, yet it took forever to operate the scanner and pay. I wonder why I feel so certain that something is very wrong about them.
I go outside to transfer the items I bought into a green bag for easier carrying, since I’m on foot. I lose sight of them and concentrate on packing six plastic bags to the one. Yet when I heft the bag and turn to leave, they have not gotten past the liquor store I’d last seen them heading for.
This is wrong.
I get an uncanny vibe. I can sense them but the vibe is alien to me. The woman says something to the girl in utter gibberish. At first I think she has a speech impediment but then, as they parallel me on the concourse, as if she read my mind and knew I’d heard her, she speaks clear, unaccented English and finishes by talking about the girl’s father. That’s peculiar, she has a relationship with the kid’s dad. I think this is strange, but then I wonder if she’s the girl’s aunt or stepmother. But I can’t think long on it.
They cross in front of me from my left to my right. The woman tells the girl that “(unintelligible)…they have good ribs.” Again the uncanny feeling that she’s just spoken another language, just not a real one, or one I’ve ever heard. It’s literally dripping gibberish. And their close proximity is very unsettling. I quicken my place to put distance between us. I expect them to cross into the parking lot. With my back to them I continue west toward the footpath.
But the parking lot is not where they go.
Before I’ve gone a hundred feet I hear her again, right behind me. I turn to look, and before I can comprehend their pace, they overtake me and are walking beside me. Not scared but aware that something is very wrong with this picture, I ask, “How are you?” And the woman, as if she knew my thoughts, said in perfect, crisp English, “Good, how are you?”
And that’s a problem. It doesn’t seemright, as if it was an effort for her.
They seem to slow a bit, I push on ahead, and before a minute has passed, I’m on the path, walking downhill and falling into a damned Army cadence! Something’s triggered my training. The very basics of it, and it’s happened before but not because of anything like this. My discipline takes over. Now every sense is heightened and no matter my pace, a middle aged woman and a young teen match my stride and never lose ground.
At the foot of the path I have to cross a street with a T intersection opposite. Fools in cars have stopped and pedestrians don’t have any choice but to stand and wait. If they step off the curb, what will happen? It’s a weird moment that stretches on. Like someone just pulled back a bow but won’t let go of the arrow.
The weird woman and girl are beside me of course. They wait too.
Then the spell breaks and time resumes its natural form and I cross. They cross to the same street but on the other side, again paralleling me. I refuse to look at them and finally get to the stone path and home.
Having had a day to attempt to analyze this truly weird encounter, I’m no closer to being able to describe it any better than I just have.
One thing stands out. The girl was silent. I never heard a word out of her and sensed something almost fey about her. She was on a plane of existence matching everything about ours, but also like one not well suited for her. I could see her but never heard her voice. She was almost like something alien in a humanoid body but was all wrong. Like something I’d never understand was inside a shell. Her mother, or whatever she was, was a bit more grounded and convincing but still tripped my alarm.
I’ve not missed nor neglected my meds so please, don’t think so. I would say it if it were true. I’d even slept soundly on the night of the 1st. I sensed nothing from anyone else going to the store or while in there. Not until those two caught my eye, as if drawing my attention deliberately but able to hide the fact, did the experience begin. It ended with my arrival home, and nothing else happened the rest of the day, that night or all day today.
It raises questions I’m unprepared and unable to answer except that, here is another incident in which I’ve been forced to acknowledge that there are things that we humans don’t understand and, perhaps, weren’t meant to. I’ve considered the possibilities in conversation since, and one answer may not be so farfetched to the celtic people I came from. I mentioned that the girl seemed detached. The woman was all over the place. Was she a mentor, a teacher to the girl? What was she saying when the gibberish came out of her mouth? Was there something fey about them?
I’ve sat and judged stories of strange encounters for decades except for those in my own experience. That’s pretty arrogant, wouldn’t you say?
Bigfoot? No way. Never anything found like a carcass. Not once. The argument is insulting to anyone who made an honest report of a creature in the woods. The truth is, sasquatch sightings have been reported in almost every state.
Aliens? Didn’t I make great sport out of those eyewitnesses? Hell yeah. And because I found out that my condition affects light refraction I’ve discounted my own “sighting” back in 2015. But not every witness has a condition quite like mine. Oh, there’s a lot of us to be sure. They have medicinal drops for your eyes, prescription strength. They have procedures they can do. But I can’t say every UFO witness has something wrong with their eyes, no more than I can say that they’re all lying.
Werewolves? Oh, hell. Physically impossible. Right? But what about witnesses to “dog men”, the descriptions of which are not even close to bigfoot?
Let’s talk about the things, for a minute, that we really don’t like to talk about. In the United States you’ll get laughed out of your shoes for suggesting that goblins, banshees, faeries and horrible things like gnomes or leprechauns can exist.
Not so fast. Go to any part of the UK and try laughing about those things. You know something? They’ll get right pissed at you. But look around while you’re there. Get out of the cities and into the countryside and go to ancient monoliths and castles. Centuries-old cathedrals, and remnants of culture predating written history. See how Hadrian’s wall still dots part of the land.
The people still respect the land and its animals and all that which can and can’t be seen. They don’t generally litter. If a wrapper is thrown down, someone won’t be long in picking it up. It’s how they are.
We American people, we don’t count Latin Americans as Americans. Nor do we count Canadians as Americans. But as residents of North, Central and South America, they are Americans. Just like Norwegians and the French and Swiss are all Europeans. Our mindset about being exclusively American equals our perception that we are superior and we know everything. We are wrong.
One reason we disbelieve reports of strange sightings and encounters is for that very reason: we think we know better. That feral and unknown species can’t exist except in movies, novels and hoaxers on YouTube.
Or the Travel Channel.
But the most uncomfortable thing, I think, to talk about in the realm of what we call the supernatural, is the concept of a species that can appear as anything it wants to.
They’re generally referred to as shapeshifters and belief in them goes so far back I’d suggest it predates written history. Lately I have thought about skin walkers and what witnesses say about them. No story can be proven, but tales passed down for generations have the same typical characteristics. We discount them as folk tales. Wild stories once told around campfires by grown men in hunting parties and trapping excursions. Those “long hunts” were not seasonal. When Daniel Boone went on a “long hunt”, his party could be gone for two years.
What the devil happened out there? And what of the stories told by Native Americans whose roots go back thousands of years? They had specific beliefs and stories of spirits and many nightmarish beings. They also had strict guidelines on behaviour in the wild when trapping, hunting and fishing. There were some things no warrior nor even a chief dared do.
Largely dismissed out of hand are stories of Thunderbird attacks. In the 19th century there were reports that pterosaurs may also have been known.
Today those reports continue albeit with much less frequency; however, sightings of a particular species have been reported in Texas and as far away as Papua New Guinea: pteranodons.
Even considering that most of these were hoaxes or misidentified vultures, not every encounter can be dismissed. Someone saw something.
We’re probably not alone here. And whether those who visit or share our world are coming through portals between dimensions, visiting from other worlds or just know how to stay hidden are friend or foe is a question I don’t particularly care to get an answer to.
Five Years Later: Update 9-2025
I have seen the two people again in these intervening years. Same vibe: not human. Not one of us. And the knowledge that ive never had this exact feeling from anyone else I’ve encountered. Exactly the same except that I knew they were aware of me, but indifferent.
It didn’t bother them. I felt their awareness without any eye contact or speech. They knew I was there. Nobody else has made me feel such a thing. We do have senses that we deny to be real, or there at all.
Psychics piss me off. Mainly because I believe that everyone has at times been very sensitive to something or had some kind of vision or dream or feeling about something that was about to happen. A man was coming home from work. Traffic was backed up. He could picture his wife’s car stuck on a guardrail as if she had just driven onto it at the angle where it meets the ground, but continued on until the car was completely suspended right down the middle neat as you please, unable to move, the drive wheels spinning uselessly in the air.
You’re driving to work. There are two roads leading away from your house. You always take the same one. Never the other one. No reason really, we don’t know why people choose things like that. One morning you feel the urge to use the other road. Later you hear that a tractor-trailer had jackknifed across the road you usually use, at the time you would have been going in the opposite direction. Had that rig hit your car…
And so it goes. Intuition works even on the simplest of things. I take quizzes. If I don’t know the answer to a question, there’s a very good chance that my first guess is correct. If I second guess, I find that I was right the first time. This is remarkably consistent, too. It’s maddening.
I’m just saying that we humans are equipped to survive, not merely with working skills, but before that, to survive wilderness and the elements, to hunt, to gather, then to farm, repel predators, to adapt, innovate and improvise. Part of our presence here today is due to survival using intuition and senses, the likes of which many deny to be real even though they act on those senses thousands of times a day.
Applying what I’ve just had to argue as to the existence of, we would understand that people have, since before written history, seen, heard, or interacted with what is vehemently denied today. We call it folk tales, myths, legends, and oddly enough, fairy tales. A century ago, a mother’s book of bedtime stories were what people today would call “horrific.”
I know. My mother had a very old book that strangely disappeared which was full of weird and frightening things. I didn’t like some of them, but children are allowed to be scared, right? It can be argued that, developmentally, it’s good to experience a bit of fright. It’s an emotional response to things that will be remembered later, when fear will become necessary for survival.
Now, where exactly did those stories come from? Some were from orally passed-down tales from ages past. They all spanned centuries, going through revision after revision. But the core tale remained. And the further back one looks, the scarier and more fantastic the tale. Reading Shakespeare is a good place to see that. It’s all there.
Okay then, what were they?
It’s been five years. I just saw the blonde girl the other day. She passed behind me in the same market, and I knew it was her. That vibe. You can’t forget that. And you know, you know that you can’t stand it, it’s just wrong, it is not on a human level. It may not be so far off that it scares you, but it’s still very upsetting. Unsettling.
She passed behind me, and I didn’t see her face, but I couldn’t take my eyes off her as she walked away, all the way to the other end of the store.
Questions ran through my mind. Crap that made no sense. Was she really alone? Was she allowed out on her own? Where was the older one, and what if she was watching me?
Not human, my brain said. Not human. Dangerous.
She had not physically matured or grown much in five years. Something wild, feral and hungry, my brain said.
My intuition was to never let her get near me again. Don’t panic, but don’t try to find out anything else.
My knowledge of the Old Kingdom lore, separately or collectively, is limited.
If I instinctively thought of her as something fey before, why did I?
Looking back, fairys or faeries exist in lore all over the world, called different things and given different attributes.
Some say they’re tiny, little pixies who like mischief. Mostly though, the winged ones are more modern. Especially the ones with dragonfly or butterfly wings. Some traditional descriptions say they can change appearance, but that in their natural state they’re hideous.
Still others say they’re the same size as any human, and unless they reveal what they are, you’re not going to know.
I don’t intend to decide for myself what’s right or wrong. I don’t even want to know anything. I’m not going to think about it. Or her.
Misfires in the brain happen all the time. Get dehydrated and you get a brain that isn’t firing on its receptors properly. Mental illness and psychotropics are great reasons not to trust what we perceive or even think we remember. Memories are fallible and unreliable anyway. My posts about the past have to contain errors, although when I wrote them, I was sure of all the main points. There was more that I wanted to write, but my recollection of a certain detail, event or location was incomplete, so I had to leave it unwritten. A story untold.
Unless I have a reason to write more on this subject, I consider it unworthy of another thought.
But be aware of one thing I’ve not said yet: this kind of creature, if I’m right, can turn on and off, like a light, something I hardly understand and hate mentioning. It’s an attraction, wild and sexual. Like that’s the reason behind its hunger.
Lest you ignore such a warning as being raving, I’m reminding you once again that no matter what we think we know, we’re really ignorant. Sure, we’ve sent men and women to space, but of our own planet, we still know shockingly little.
People are seeing things they don’t understand. Hearing things they can’t act on. Feeling things that fly in the face of a creation of God, a supreme being who can create anything he wants. And who knows what else He made?
Should your intuition be affected by anything like what I’ve described, stay away from it.
Do no violence and no harm.
Don’t panic. So long as there’s no contact, everything should be fine.
Three weeks ago this past Sunday, I grew sleepy enough that I went to bed around 2:30 (1430 hours). I don’t remember dreaming.
Just after dark, something pushed me out of bed. With force.
I didn’t fall out of bed.
How I wish I had.
This was a push in the middle of my back, forcing me off and away from the bed so that I landed on my stomach two feet away.
On the way down, I hit an old computer desk I was using as a nightstand. The top was heavy but it came off, flipped over and landed on my legs. My lower back was wet from a glass of water I’d sat on the stand.
In the pitch dark, I tried to turn onto my back but felt my shoulders pinned to the floor. I struggled, feeling a pain on my posterior right deltoid which I couldn’t process because suddenly I was released and I turned over. Whatever was there with me in the dark, it pinned my shoulders again, on my back. I never heard anything but the crash of the table falling apart. No growling or anything or like that.
But I was being held.
I raised my head, trying to get momentum to sit up, but could not go any further.
I was scared, but not terrified. This was new for me but I know the drill from other past experiences: never show fear; it’ll only make it worse. Demons suck the energy you put out as fear right out of the air and that energy makes them stronger.
I was finally released and was so weak that getting up was still difficult nonetheless. A scratch behind my right shoulder burned and itched like an animal’s scratch.
Feeling my way in the dark, I found the lamp, impossibly further from the wall than my feet, and turned it on. How it could still be plugged in, I couldn’t say. I was in shock.
Looking around in the lit room, it hit me: it was a demonic attack, no doubt about it.
For years I could see shadows in there from where I watch TV on the sofa. I didn’t dismiss them outright. That’s foolish. You tell a doctor and they’ll medicate you with an antipsychotic. Don’t do it.
But I didn’t worry either; they were fleeting, usually a sign they’re just passing through.
This time one didn’t. It stayed long enough to get irritated, perhaps, at my snoring. More likely, though, is that it just found a target and took advantage of it.
Most physical attacks attributed to ghosts are probably not what people think. They’re either weak and give a slight push near a staircase, or they tug at your shirt. When it comes to powerful physical force, enough to empty cupboards or scratch you, I don’t care what TV “experts” say; that’s no ghost, and certainly not a poltergeist. It’s demonic and you are in danger.
One thing I know is that electricity can give them power. In the room on the side of the bed the push came from, there’s a peculiar combination. The utility room is on the other side of the wall and it holds the power main, circuit breaker panel and the mammoth Fios box. Part of it draws so much power that a hole runs through for it to plug into a socket in my bedroom. Also, in my room, is a box for a double router and the main router sits on the dresser. That’s enough to supply plenty of energy to an entity for at least a single attack, but I’m counting being pinned twice as part of the attack, too.
I haven’t slept in there since. Sooner or later I will. I’ve bought a new matress and frame, tossed the computer table and have asked for prayer intervention by a priest in New York who is powerful in his faith. A short prayer from him goes far.
But none of my stories ever end so quickly. By now, you’re probably aware of this. Because there could be a reason for the attack.
I have a friend who’s plagued by misfortune. Plagued. I’ve talked with this friend at length trying to “see” what causes so much trouble in the home. I was sent a photograph of two dolls. Out of caution and for the friend’s anonymity as well as safety I won’t give any name, nor shall I describe the dolls.
There’s one in particular that bothers her and yet I saw both as being attached by dark spirits. I mean demons.
The one bothering my friend the most — or which, more specifically, she thought was responsible — is indeed immediately troubling to look at. That’s my gift if you want to call it that. I can read photographs of places, and on rare occasions people, and see things about them that others may not. Of course, in my posts “The Cat Who Knew Too Much” and “The Angel Of Death”, I did this with a house across the street from me. But most often, in person, sensory overload prevents me from it. It’s rare. The senses are all being used and can make me unaware of what’s unseen. However, a photograph is something I’m practiced at concentrating on, and in a second can tell if a place is best avoided. When I look after that, the intuition may intensify or even get specific.
This happened recently when someone put up a photograph of a house which was of interest to someone they knew. I simply commented with, “any way they could keep looking (for a house to buy)?”
It piqued my friend’s interest and I was asked to elaborate, which I did. But in the end it seemed that friend came to other conclusions and I’ll be careful about offering my two cents henceforth.
Back to the doll my friend thought solely responsible for some of her misfortune. It isn’t. The other one has a prideful and mean attachment. It has a mischievous side as well. It picked the doll for that reason. I can’t say why. But it likes to mess with her, hide things like keys, money, trinkets or something else needful. Sometimes, I suspect, the items in question are found in weird places. I would say also that some are never found, a testament to the spirit’s true power.
Activity began immediately after the pictures were taken. My friend got upset but moreover, so did her cats. They became agitated, anxious.
I advised prayer, a Hail Mary and an Our Father. I also said to apologize for taking pictures without first asking for permission. All these things worked. My friend also blessed themself with holy water and the sign of the cross. The cats got the same and calmed down.
I can’t see a way to be rid of the dolls because if destroyed, the spirits may stay in the home and grow extremely bellicose. Someone has to knowingly and willingly take them. The Zaffis or Warren museums may take them. But until they are gone from that house, misfortune will continue. These things are cursed which is why spirits attached in the first place. If not removed, then they, as with all cursed objects, will cause misfortune. This includes problems with health and finances that don’t appear to make sense. Relationship troubles that cannot be repaired. And it isn’t usually just the person who made the initial purchase and brought them home that’s affected; everyone in the house will be treated to their own share of misery, and yes, people who are living in such conditions can die. For instance, anecdotal evidence has shown repeatedly that cancers and other maladies seem to be affected or made worse by cursed objects. All cursed objects have a demonic attachment. Otherwise the curse doesn’t work. Whoever casts the curse or no matter how it comes to be attached, an object so haunted has an attached demon who will not quit. It does not need sleep. It does not eat. It is not from the realm of the physical. And it hates all humans equally in the end even if, for a time, it can be pacified. And I wouldn’t count on that.
I also don’t recommend pacification because a demon with a fixed nature may strengthen if it prefers to affect a particular person in a household.
In both of the above cases where I tried to help, I paid for it. The attack in my bed almost immediately came after I advised against buying the house. While engaged in the ongoing attempt to see what was in there, something shut me out and it was as if I had a door slammed in my face. Whatever it was, it was very angry and very strong.
Then the attack came. Why the delay? It is normal for me to fall asleep watching TV while lying on the sofa. The attack came on the one night I slept in my room (the one with so much electricity in the wall the attack came from).
They do love revenge. Oh, demons are happy to mess with anyone from babies to seniors, but all who interfere in their affairs will eventually face their wrath, and that’s a terrible thing. Depending on the type of demon and how much power it can pull from causing fear or from electromagnetic fields, these experiences can cause deep trauma.
Following the conversation about the dolls, retribution came to me in nightmares, each worse than the one before. I’ve discussed nightmares before; some I’ve described as fever-induced, others brought about by PTSD, some contained warnings, and more. Demons torment lots of people in dreams because they are not of flesh and can easily get into one’s mind.
In the first place, I have to note that I was weak. Not prayed-up, which leaves us on our own. I was also under stress because of the pandemic and looming election. This stress kept me up late and I missed my chance to get a ride to early voting. That increased my stress because now I had only election day. I’m in a blue state, but I wanted to vote anyway. I believe it is a duty. A privilege, and an honor. But because of PTSD, stress comes from the most simple of things. So I was predisposed and open to attack. That’s my fault, and I didn’t even think about it.
The first dream involved me trying to protect someone who did not want my help. At first she looked like my youngest sister, but she became faceless. Dreams leave out details as the focus shifts to the need for other details. In this case, a punk she kept going to despite his being no good. At one point I was aware I spoke out loud, as in, talking in my sleep. Back in his bedroom my housemate heard me scream, “Why don’t you unlock the fucking door?” as clearly as if I were awake.
I was screaming at her (this woman I was trying to save) from outside a sliding door, looking right at her. She was in his house. But she was afraid not to open it because my anger was towering. I went in and the guy had this stupid look on his face. He was scared but defiant. I beat him so badly that he went down. His nose was flat to his face and inside his skull. Blood was everywhere and he choked on it.
I pulled a large hunting knife from a belt sheath and held the point to his throat. I was amazed that he was still conscious. The blade went into his throat a little bit and I screamed hysterically, “Touch her again, you will fucking die!”
As I awoke, feeling pretty horrible, the words popped into my mind: “Whatever you do to the least of these, you do to me.”
Had the punk represented Jesus? I couldn’t figure it out.
The next night was worse. I was watching a weird car shaped like a triangle, a pointed nose bearing decals like green flames over a cadmium yellow paint scheme. I saw it swerving all over the place. I knew the driver wasn’t drunk; trouble was at hand. Sure enough it eventually crashed. A bad wreck with a rollover. I ran to see if I could help. The door was gull-wing, opening upward. A black man stumbled out and his right arm at the wrist was inside his ear! But when he withdrew it, with no display of pain or any emotion at all, he had no hand. His lower arm narrowed and was lobed, like an asparagus spear!
He was not alone, either. After he had removed his arm he just sat on the ground, glassy eyed and still. Behind him at uneven distances were others, also glassy eyed and motionless, but alive. What the hell was going on?
Images like these are normal in nightmares, but I could tell this dream was another one induced by a vengeful spirit, with torment its only intention. Demon dreams have two elements not found in other nightmares: they’re more vivid and detailed, and they are unforgettable. I remember every single one I’ve had. I knew something was there with me. The dreams get vile, to a degree of causing trauma and leaving me a shambles when I awaken.
I don’t want to sleep tonight.
But I must pray for redemption and forgiveness, and I must ask for protection by the Holy Trinity.
I can’t go any further, but I do want to leave you with the little bit of advice that I can after 40+ years of studying the supernatural.
First, pray often. Confess your sins and ask for protection, for deliverance from evil.
Second, obey your gut, your instincts. If something seems amiss, whether you are a believer or a skeptic, then avoid an investment like a house, something you’ll be locked into for a long time. Check the history of the house. Talk to neighbors. Previous owners.
Third, avoid antiques. All antiques, and especially anything without a known history. Avoid yard sales, garage sales and used items on Ebay. Just trust me.
Fourth, no dolls! Not only that but figurines, curios, action figures, sculptures. Both new and old. Giving a kid a doll is asking for trouble. There have been too many cases of entities attached to them attacking kids. No dolls.
Avoid heirlooms. They may not be attached, but can carry and hold residual energy from the past. The older the heirloom, the more it holds. The owners did not always live lives of strawberries and cream. You don’t want negative energy around you.
This includes the clothing, jewelry or anything else the dead leave behind. Avoid crystals and the trappings of charlatans who claim to hold your answers. Obey your gut; second guessing yourself will always lead you in the wrong direction.
Lastly, avoid all dark arts. Calling forth spirits to do your bidding will never end well. I’ve personally known people who did this, and they had to abandon their house. As in, flee from it. And once it was vacant, even a guy running a snowplow avoided that street.
Do not ghost hunt. You Tubers do this often, copying TV ghost hunters. It’s not for novices or casual fun. For my prime example I’ll use the dreadful “Ghost Adventures”, a long-running series on Travel Channel. They go in with equipment, all serious, and as soon as something goes bump in the night, they scream like adolescent girls playing at a ouija board. The rest is acting, all of it bad. Something, without fail, always attacks Zak or another one in the group. Drama queen stuff. All the while, Zak narrates in a sanctimonious voice.
It’s funny, but at the same time, dangerous. You go looking for something, you’ll eventually find it. Then you get to find out that the something didn’t want to be found. They’re silly, ghost hunters, but they take awful chances. You can be saved a lot of misery simply by not going on ghost hunts and asking for spirits to show themselves.
As for me? I’d rather not sleep anymore.
UPDATE: The friend with the dolls failed to find a place for them. Terrible things happened including a death in the apartment. Finally she left, leaving the dolls and just about everything else in there, and since then has done very well. She had an infection that cleared up after 4 years of suffering from it, and a few other things have been resolved. I know I was right about the dolls and yet she was too; she would never have wanted help if she had thought them harmless.
I take no joy in knowing what I do.
So, yeah, it’s official. I’m never sleeping again.
This post contains mature subject matter and certain triggers!
Contents: Fear, Supernatural, Violence and Rape.
If you or someone you know is the victim of rape or sexual assault, call the National Sexual Assault Hotline (800) 656-3673 for directions to help in your area. This is no time to be alone.
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A terrible saga began in 1901 when a brownstone house was built. No one is left to tell the story of its early days. Some property listings say that it is “prewar” which, these days, is an ambiguous term. You know it means before the second world war, but it also predates the first world war, “The Great War,” as it has been named.
When it was built, the Ottoman Empire still existed. That year, President William McKinley was shot, succumbing to his wounds a week later. Theodore Roosevelt was sworn in.
A summer heatwave killed over 9,000 Americans; air conditioning did not yet exist. Louis Armstrong, Ed Sullivan and Walt Disney were born. They’ve long since left us.
Arizona, New Mexico, Oklahoma, Alaska and Hawaii weren’t yet states, but territories.
The world didn’t notice, nor would it care, that another Brooklyn brownstone was just being built.
The world was a busy place, and the Boxer Rebellion was just coming to an end, Cuba became a protected territory of the United States: future president Batista, who would be deposed by Fidel Castro, was born. Japan was resolute in its efforts to keep Russia out of Korea, and Australia became a sovereign country but retained British “oversight”, and Queen Victoria passed away at age eighty-two. She was succeeded by Edward VII, but most of the power of the Crown had been leached from it by Parliament.
In New York City, Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid had left the Wild Bunch, passed through for a photograph and settled in South America. But in 1901, the Wild Bunch went on without them and pulled their last known job, a train Robbery.
Teddy Roosevelt decided that henceforth, The Executive Mansion would be officially known as “The White House.”
Coney Island was just getting its reputation and it changed several times. At first hotels catered to the wealthy, then there came a monstrosity called “The Elephant,” which housed a brothel, and illegal “prizefights” went on out back. Nathan Handwerker wasn’t even attracted to the area until 1916, when the Elephant was gone and beach-and-boardwalk boundaries were finalized. He was the man responsible for Nathan’s Famous Hot Dogs, and when someone wanted a “Coney Island hot dog” and some rings, that’s where they went.
In 1901, most of New York City was unrecognizable to current residents and tourists. The Brooklyn Bridge was up, but across the river, the Empire State Building wasn’t even dreamt of yet, and the Flatiron Building was not yet finished. The towering skyscrapers would be raised later.
Circa 1901: note the delivery carriages and the dress of the day.Not sure what street this is, but the building is identified as Alcazar Theatre, ca 1906. Again, note the brick road and carriages drawn by horse.
With horseless carriages now on the roads, it was inescapable that tremendous changes were coming. Not everyone welcomes change; too much too fast, and we go into shock from it all. All of the above should amaze you; it does me.
Between 1901 and present day, 119 years all told and soon to be 120, much has taken place. The world became, in ways people living in 1901 couldn’t imagine, a masterpiece of the macabre and the miraculous wrought by humanity. We’ve engaged in the most destructive wars the Earth has ever known, made medicine and vaccines that saved lives, sent men to the moon and the bottom of the sea. Television and motion pictures evolved to a staggering range of abilities including realistic dinosaurs rendered by computers. In 1901, that wasn’t imaginable.
And the brownstone at 455 Sackett Street saw some awful things. Later, much later, a walled-up body would be discovered. Terrible things indeed.
In 1912, the Year of the Titanic, a boy was born to a couple who lived those harsh days with stoicism and firm resolve in the “Irish” part of Brooklyn, where a mere street served as a boundary between them and Italians, and crossing that street meant putting oneself in peril. Gangs ruled both sections, but it would be the Italian Mafia that came to rule all five Burroughs with an iron grip.
Young Frank Cunningham had no idea what he was in for. One day his mother took him with her to visit the graves of friends and relatives. Child and infant mortality was high, and a woman who carried eight babies was fortunate if only one survived. Yellow and Typhoid fever were constant predators, rheumatic fever and everything else including ghastly birth defects were not uncommon. Frank looked at the little graves, not quite understanding how babies could die. The sensitive boy was told that they were angels now. But things make lasting impressions on the young. And when the Spanish flu struck his mother down, Frank was sent to live with a relative. She survived the initial fight, but succumbed not long after. Frank Cunningham learned that the world was unforgiving and grew up constantly reminded of that awful truth.
After growing up to be a man, he enlisted and was discharged just before the attack on Pearl Harbor. He went right back in, serving until the end of World War Two. During that time he slogged across Italy as a corporal gunner in the field artillery. He endured the heat of the North African days and the cold at night. Then, just after D-Day, his unit was assigned to Patton, and the field artillery was a critical component of the Third Army. Of all the weapons the Allies had, artillery was perhaps the most feared by infantry. When Wermacht troops saw or, worse, heard but couldn’t see a spotter plane overhead, there was nothing they could do. Artillery was deadly accurate, and there were different shells used. All of them were terrible, including anti-personnel shrapnel rounds, high explosives, incendiary and white phosphorus.
It was in April of 1945 that an armored cavalry unit entered the Gotha countryside deep in Germany. There had been rumors but not a man there could ever have prepared himself for what they had stumbled upon. Somehow, Frank’s unit had been brought up. Eisenhower and Patton both went into the Ohrdruf concentration camp which fell under the Buchenwald network command. Eisenhower wrote that there was a shed full of stacked bodies and George would not go in, claiming he’d get sick. Both wrote that that bestiality was worse than anything they had seen. Frank never forgot the scene, bodies partially burned on pyres as the German Schutzstaffel, or SS, bugged out, hoping no evidence of their evil would remain. He remembered the stench of decomposing bodies starved or shot, bodies that would have been hard to be close to even when they were alive.
The war ended, Frank came home, entered New York politics, and worked hard to help anyone who needed it. While an alderman he would spend his own money to take turkeys for the holidays to the poor families who otherwise would have celebrated nothing. He understood hunger, suffering on all levels and he was still that sensitive little boy on the inside, the one who found comfort that babies went to Heaven and became angels.
He didn’t speak of the war. He had been through too much, seen too much. He once charged a machine gun nest with two MG 42s, which was either brave, suicidal or both. He earned a Purple Heart and two Silver Stars and he was fine with it, keeping his pain and his extreme hatred for Germans to himself.
But then Frank found the perfect partner in Jane, whom he married. They stayed in love until death parted them. Their daughter caused them a turn or two; in what at the time was Redhook, there were plenty of hazards. Their daughter made friends easily with people who sometimes caused Frank to be concerned, but she also brought home friends who were in trouble, and Frank never turned any of them away. A teen beaten by his father for his sexual orientation was kicked out of his house. Frank let the boy stay, then went to his father and said, “You ever lay a hand on him in anger again, you’ll be sorry.” Then he demanded, “How the hell can you kick your own son out on the street?”
And he meant it. He wasn’t fond of threats, which are always a sign of weakness. If he said he would do something, he’d do it. That was part of his reputation. The man did not, as I know of, ever raise his hand to the boy again.
Another native of Redhook, “Crazy Joe” Gallo, once stopped in the street and spoke solicitously to Frank’s daughter, scaring the little girl. She told Frank about it. She merely described the man and where he was and at what time of day. That was enough that Frank knew it was Joey Gallo. He simply waited on the sidewalk the next day, and when the monster who had been rumored to be part of the hit on Albert Anastasia came along, Frank calmly told him that if he ever went near his daughter again, he’d be really sorry.
And Gallo believed him. The reckless gangster who would die, riddled by bullets, in front of Umbertos Clam House, backed down. He knew that Frank was respected and well-liked, a man of principle, honesty and kindness. He probably understood, somewhere in his dim mind, that those are the guys you least want to piss off.
Frank Cunningham was “hands off”, a respected man. Besides, everyone had kids, and nobody wanted them hurt.
When accidents at intersections began to claim injuries and lives, he was the man to go to. He’d fight for traffic lights anywhere, even outside his district. He was occasionally unsuccessful, but a man who had seen and done so much in his life wouldn’t let someone down. He’d continue to fight for, and he got traffic lights, and undeniably, he saved lives.
Even fighters, though, have their day of reckoning, that one day when they sit across from a doctor and get the worst news of their lives. And so it was for Frank: cancer.
His daughter was married, and she was a nurse. She was pregnant during his end stage, and she took loving care of him as he grew more sick. Soon he was bedridden and she’d lie to him and say she was giving him vitamin shots because he hated painkillers. It was really demerol. One day early in the treatment he became loopy, and remarked that the vitamins were a bit suspicious. He knew, though. Frank always knew the score.
One day, still cold outside, he asked if she would drive him to Coney Island. She was surprised by the request. Was he really up to it? Her mother was sick and couldn’t go, but he wanted to visit the place. His daughter got the car ready, then helped him out to it, and they left. Frank…always knew the score. This would be his last chance to score a Nathan’s and an orange drink; he loved those. He managed to eat most of the Nathan’s and the drink, but couldn’t finish.
He asked to go to the beach, but his daughter knew he could not make the walk. She got permission from one of New York’s finest to drive under the boardwalk and onto the beach. He stood for a while, gazing out at the ocean, then said, “We had some good times here, didn’t we?” It wasn’t so much a question as an acceptance of success as a father and a husband; he’d done his best, but his time was up.
Doubtless he remembered the afternoon when he came home from work and found his wife and daughter in the kitchen, attempting to wash dishes and failing because they were giggling in between fits of mirth. Jane was washing the same plate the whole time he asked each of them how their day was and what exactly was so funny.
It turned out that Jane Cunningham was aware that her daughter smoked marijuana, and, being a responsible mother, she wanted to see what all the fuss was about. So she and her daughter went and smoked a joint. It was, after all, the 70s. A parent should know certain things, right?
Frank probably knew, always knowing the score the way he did, but he never brought it up or pressed. Although evidently his expression gave Jane the idea that it would please him if she left the teenager stuff to their daughter.
As often occurs with end stage patients, there were moments of tenderness and lucidity and a final rally. Frank was being tended to by his daughter one night and he said to her, “Your mother’s birthday is tomorrow. Get me my wallet, please.” She gave it to him, and he picked some currency out and told her which jeweler to patronize, and to get his beloved Jane something nice.
And that’s how he was. A father, a husband and a man anyone can look up to and make even the slightest effort to emulate, and end up a great man.
He talked to daughter Maggie about how they used to go to Mets games, especially one game in the 1969 World Series. And the Jets, and how he had introduced her to Tom Seaver and Joe Namath. She still swears her undying love for Seaver (Tom Seaver died of complications from COVID-19 shortly after this post was first published).
Frank Cunningham never showed any regret that he had no son. To his delight, his daughter went with him anywhere, and was as enthusiastic about sports as he was, and even got a priceless political education from him that no school could touch.
The rally was a wonder. Frank sat up in bed and ate steak and lobster and had a beer. It was wondrous that is, until his daughter realized that rallies often signal that the end is close, very close. His death came as no surprise to her, but her daddy, her teacher, her friend…was gone.
It wasn’t fair. He never got to meet his granddaughter, who was born later that same year. Nor his grandson, who came a few years later. No one should have to go before meeting their grandkids.
But there is always another bit of unfairness waiting on either side of the stage. Jane Cunningham died, leaving Maggie grieving terribly, and she’s never stopped. She knew it had happened. She wasn’t there, but she knew. Maggie senses things, and surely grief has sharpened her ability; she often knows when a friend is in trouble. And, so very often, she’s been called on by a higher power to tend to a friend or neighbor when their last days are near. Frank and Jane Cunningham were such amazing parents that their only child turned into a lightworker, one who helps the dying and the lost to find their way home.
Tragedy sometimes hits families with a force and frequency, though, that seems so unfair as to be a challenge to their faith, their family unit, their ability to keep up or to cope with it all.
And so we come to the terrifying, terrible part of the saga that is 455 Sackett Street in the Brooklyn neighborhood of Carroll Gardens. Used to be that the whole area was counted as Redhook. And, way back when, there was Mafia violence clean down to the waterfront, where the scaled down operations continue to this day. All five New York Mafia families have always had their fingers in Brooklyn. In the map below, 455 Sackett Street is pinned, but look to its right and notice a dark line extending north to south to the waterfront. That’s the Gowanus Canal, a place that once served as a dumping place where the mobs disposed of bodies.
The site of terrible events in Brooklyn in the 1990s pinned in red.
There have been all sorts of frightening things found in those old homes. Renovating means tearing up floors and ripping drywall. People have found caches of Thompson machine guns, drugs, tunnels, bodies and everything in-between. People making these discoveries include side work carpenters, contractors and do-it-yourself owners. At least some have reported paranormal activity in those homes, though many still prefer to remain silent about such things. Others have told friends in confidence only to have the story grow legs, gain new details and they never say anything about it again.
Now we find Frank and Jane’s daughter, married, two children. They moved into the brownstone in the 90s and Maggie’s daughter, aged 14, said that she didn’t like the house. These days, the brownstones are highly coveted, but that unit was going for cheap. Jane didn’t feel right about it. She wrote this awesome yet disturbing brief of the family’s horrors in the year they lived there.
That’s an horrific story, but unfortunately, it doesn’t end there. True, the fire department could find no reason for the fire. But while there, they had dozens of things happen that go beyond that narrative.
The poor girl was to testify and was treated unforgivably by the district attorney. The slime that raped her taunted her endlessly and threatened to kill her the next time he attacked her. In the courthouse, her mother was sequestered, not allowed into the trial. Meanwhile, the D.A. told the girl that because she was reporting ongoing crimes by her rapist, the court was going to put her in a group home and have uniformed police escort her to and from school. Hysterical, Jane ran from the courthouse, refusing to ever testify. Even therapy didn’t help; her first therapist shamed her by saying she should have testified. Then the guy couldn’t have raped more girls. The rapist was old enough to go to a supermax where, possibly, some guys might not have liked how young his victim was.
First of all, to a young victim, threatening to put her in a group home is heinous. Second, shaming gets done to victims enough by defense lawyers, so coming from a therapist, more trauma is added where there should never be any.
All sexual assault victims feel guilt. It’s something the mind does with that kind of trauma. That kind of experience. Historically, women have had great difficulty getting heard at all, and much more at getting justice, and still more dealing with trauma. It’s evil, all of it, and sickening to even imagine going through. Which is hard. Never can anyone who has not been so assaulted imagine what it’s like.
The trouble continued. Her father was never the same. He felt tremendous guilt that he had not been able to stop his little girl from being savaged so. He had already done brilliant work in his career, he loved his wife dearly, he loved his children and before living in that house, was so devoted to them that he’d give his wife time alone after her shift and take the children to the park. After his little girl was savagely attacked, and so visibly wounded, he began to drink. The drinking went hardcore, to a point his wife told him to leave. Afterward, he literally drank himself to death.
I get where everyone in this tragic story is coming from. My daughter was raped. She was in Junior high school. She walked. I drove her when I could, but then the breakup happened. I wasn’t there. Had I been, she would not have had to walk that day, and wouldn’t have been offered a ride. When she told me about it, we got in the car. She was going to show me his house. I was going to kill him later, after I got her back home. She said, “Dad, I can’t. Take me home. And don’t call the police.” She never said a word about it again.
I understand. As a victim myself, I knew the pain, the trauma. The fear. As a father, I knew the guilt, helplessness and my ultimate failure as a dad.
I, too, went into the bottle. Hard. At one point, I walked to work. One mile each way. After work, I’d buy a bottle and toss the empty on the side of the road or in someone’s yard, since it was dark, before I got home. Before that, I’d lost a job by drying myself out. So I said “fuck it” and started the liquor again.
And I get sibling guilt, too. I had to lie in my bed at night when I was a teenager and listen to my father raping my sisters. I couldn’t stop it, he terrified me. I could have beaten him to death but it wasn’t in my power. That’s guilt you take to the grave; it’s not rightfully yours, but there is no shaking it. Part of the reason I’m happy not having any contact with my blood relatives is that guilt. I got to where I couldn’t look them in the eye anymore.
Like Jane, I had times when I knew, even saw something evil in my room. I’ve told that story, so look through my archives and check it out.
But her troubles continue, as do mine. I’ve come under demonic attack repeatedly. In her current apartment, things go missing. She and her mother and her boyfriend have looked everywhere, and it’s only a studio. Sometimes things stay lost. Sometimes they turn up in places no one would put them.
There are vague apparitions, a face formed on a wall, her health has become frail, she has money problems and nightmares that I suspect are demonically influenced, not just PTSD nightmares. Something is in there.
The mother of the weasel who raped her said she had put a curse on her using Latin voodoo. I have written about curses, and people who say they’re bullshit unless you believe in them are idiots. The woman was “anadept” at whatever she practiced, so it may be true. The varmint had been found hanged in his jail cell after being arrested for more rapes and violent crimes. That’s okay; the world is a better place without him.
But Maggie and Jane, and Jane’s brother, they’re much more than just a tragic story. From a long line of Irish blood, Maggie has raised her family to be stronger than most. Frank Cunningham served his country and raised a daughter whose children are a true reflection of his sense of honor, honesty, loyalty and his resilience. They will not be defeated; they will endure. They inspire me, move me, teach me and they have gotten me through some dire issues, solely because they care. Just as Frank cared; the man who frustrated his wife by writing checks to buy turkeys for poor families. Like that. It’s not just that, either. It comes from love and empathy, the best parts of us.
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It is never the best of times that give us the tools to fight against things that threaten us or our loved ones. It is always the worst that life can dish out that forms who we become, how strong we are, how much determination we can muster. No one lives without darkness, and evil cannot be escaped in life; it doesn’t work that way. Through the trials we endure, we learn the difference between light and dark and decide which we will live by.
I know a family in New York who I am proud to say I can call my friends. We are family. On my worst days, unable to get up, unable to sleep, unable to even form my thoughts, I need only think of them, and I’ll be on the mend soon enough.
And as terrible as this has been, take heart; if not for that brownstone that predates our country’s flag, I would never have known them at all. We meet people, sometimes, because of an awful, shared experience. It makes no sense, but it is often true.
Update: in March of 2025, Jane Francis Hunter died. She passed away alone, leaving behind a brother, her mother and uncountable friends who grieve. She is no longer in pain. The nightmares have stopped and what remains is our memory of a loving, bright, enthusiastic and extraordinary woman we shall not forget.