Too Scared

I woke up unable to move. At least, not much. I skipped a shower. My body was little else but pain.

I didn’t go to therapy. I was exhausted and cramped with IBSD, which dehydrates you. I couldn’t travel.

I’m not complaining; I have lots of days like this. It’s all a part of mental illness. PTSD and depression, along with deep stress all go together. My treatment helps, but on days like this, I can’t tell.

So many of us suffer the same symptoms, and it’s not fair, it feels like a curse.

Tonight I want to offer hope and encourage you to hold on. But I can’t. I don’t feel those things nor do I see hope. I’m too scared.

I awoke to the news that the Centers for Disease Control (CDC) was being gutted. That’s a move toward genocide, because without innoculations, communicable diseases will soon be spread across the U.S. as we’re sitting here helpless.

It also constitutes an act of biological warfare against the world; no single country alone gets affected. We saw with COVID that disease spreads at speeds too fast to comprehend.

To all people around the world, you should be very concerned about this. I’m not being paranoid when I say a deliberately planned biological attack could be in the wings as I write this.

You’ve no doubt heard about how stupid some of Trump’s cabinet is, and that too should scare you. They want to annex Greenland, and are just dumb enough to fire on Denmark to get it.

It would initiate World War Three. They don’t care. These stupid people are destroying our country. By killing Social Security recipients, a great deal of the economy fails. That money goes back into the economy for medicine, food, clothing, rent, car insurance and more. Why kill your own customers? That makes no sense at all. But it’s happening.

Tomorrow I will know if I get a cheque or not. I’ll know if I can eat, pay rent, co-pays, buy prescriptions or buy the supplies I need online.

I’d like to have hope, but now, tonight, that’s a tall order.

Day by day, this country is being dismantled.

I do have high hopes that April 5th protests will start something that ends in the president leaving office. They should be scared, because I know what Americans can do when they’ve had enough.

To the World, I apologize on behalf of my country. This nightmare is not who or what we are, or what we’re about. I appreciate our Allies more than ever, and when this is over, I pray that we can be friends again.

I gather you know what must be done. Impose a freeze on all trade with the U.S.A. and stand your ground. The best way to help us is by not helping us.

To my fellow citizens, I say this: speak out now or lose the freedom to speak at all.

Do what you know is right. Time is running out.

The good guys who stand by and do not speak out are really the bad guys. The enemy.

So you have decisions to make.